Today we had our AARD meeting, officially putting Parker in Special Ed. It was really really hard for me.. just when I think that I have accepted what has happened to my sweet baby, I fall apart all over again. Special Ed is not what it used to be. Parker will be getting speach therapy twice a week and a teacher for the hearing impaired twice a week to work with him to learn better listening skills. He will also have an aid 30 mins a day during Reading and Language that will work one on one with him to make sure he is not missing anything. He will still be in a normal classroom and recieve normal grades. I feel so blessed to have the support system that we have at his school. His teacher, Mrs. Hayes is amazing.. they have all gone above and beyond to get him on track. I was very happy with their suggestions and the meeting was better than I imagined.
I am a little embarrassed that I still can't manage to get through a conversation about his hearing loss without crying. Maybe I will get there one day.
I am SO proud of my baby boy. He is so strong and resiliant. After all that he has been through in the last year he is still happy go lucky, smart, funny...
It's hard to watch your child suffer.. I think I have mourned more than he has.
Mrs. Hayes said something to me that has really helped me cope.. and that was something along the lines of this: that she believes that when he lost his hearing it was to strengthen some other part of him... some other sense or character trait that will lead him on his path to do something amazing. He is so strong willed and determined and I can't wait to see what amazing talent or skill he will gain from this.. and so I try to focus on the positive.. that he can hear again and that he has the best character possible to deal with something like this. I will try not to dwell so much on what he has lost from this and look forward to all that he will become and gain from it.
