As I was going through random blogs this morning, I came accross this entry written by a mother to her autistic son. It really touched me and made me realize how often I brush my children off to do things that don't really matter. I let myself get so overwhelmed with all of the housework and trying to make the boys behave perfectly that I forget to just sit back and enjoy them. I am not saying I should let the house fall apart and the boys go crazy but they are only little once and we should really cherish as much of it as we can.
Just For Today by Sally Meyer
Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face...and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you wake up softly in your flannel p.j.'s...and hold you until you are ready to stir. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear...and I will say how beautiful you are. Just for this morning, I will step over the laundry to pick you up...and take you to the park to play Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink...and let you teach me how to put your puzzle together. Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off...and sit with you in the garden blowing bubbles. Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck...and I will buy you one, if he comes by. Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up...I will simply love you for the joy you bring me. Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me make cookies...and I wont stand over you . . . trying to 'fix things.' Just for this afternoon, I will take you to McDonald's and buy us both a 'Happy Meal'...so you can have two toys. Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you the story of how you were born...and how much we love you. Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the bathtub...and I won't get angry when you pour water over your sister's head. Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late...while we sit on the porch swing and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will bring you glasses of water...and snuggle beside you for hours...and miss my favorite t.v. show. And tonight when you are sleeping safe and warm in your bed, I will think of the mothers and fathers who mourn for the children they have lost. I will remember the parents who sit by hospital beds,watching over the little ones they love. I will weep for those parents whose children are cold,hungry and suffering, and .... this evening, when I kneel down to pray, I will simply be grateful for all that I have and not ask for anything...except just one more day.
© copyright 1999 Sally Meyer(written for her autistic son, Dhylan)